Monday, September 14, 2009

What I Will Not Miss

This will serve as a reminder of all that I hated about being heavy when I'm thin and healthy again, with the purpose of helping never forget why I forge on with this lifestyle choice of mine. So here goes:
  • I don't care much for my belly roll. It makes my pants look lumpy, keeps me from wearing trendy clothes, and gets in the way when I shave my legs.
  • Puffy elbows are not attractive on me. Elbows were meant to be bony.
  • My face is bloated, and puffy.
  • I am deathly afraid of my picture showing up on various social networking sites.
  • I could go the rest of my life without hearing my young kids mention how, "Our mommy is the biggest one in the family, just like our Mama cat is!"
  • Weighing more than my husband is humiliating.
  • Hesitating to buy life insurance because the rates will be high right now, is probably not such a good idea.
  • My rear end is flat, and it's supposed to be round. The extra fat has created a lumpy, boxy appendage that isn't so cute in tighter clothing. But bulky clothing just makes me look bigger. Lumpy or frumpy? Take your pick.
  • My liver is probably covered in fat, and my internal fat likely crowds out my abdominal organs.
  • If I had to chase down a kidnapper who'd stolen one of my children, I'd probably giggle myself to death before I saved the day.
  • Sitting by the side of the pool in my capri pants (because I can't stand the sight of my legs in shorts right now and wearing a suit is enough to give me a cardiac arrest) while the rest of my family plays happily in the cool water, is not my idea of fun. And it's very hot.
  • Being afraid of bumping into old friends who've never seen me heavy is sometimes stressful enough to bring on a mini panic attack
  • My chest is heavy, bulky, and far too generous for my taste. I miss my lighter mammary glands, and so do my over-burdened bras.
  • Crossing my legs comfortably would be nice.
  • Running without killing my knees would great too.

I think that should do it for right now. I'm sure I am missing some, so I may add to the list as I remember other things.

What I really look forward to doing, is making a list of all the things I love about being thin and fit when I get there!


  1. I could have written this myself. I hope that you will have all the success you deserve!

    I especially relate to the sitting by the pool in your capri pants. That was me, and it wasn't fun. Add to that the fact that the capri pants were ones I had made, so they were ill fitting as well.

  2. I'm always worried I'll run into someone I haven't seen in awhile and they'll be trying not to notice how big I've gotten. The weight is slowly coming off, so it's less and less of a worry, but it's not gone completely yet!

  3. These are great reasons- you should cut them out and hang them on your fridge for extra motivation! Heck- I might steal your list and put it on my own fridge!!! Best of Luck!